Yum, Chemicals!

As much as I have disliked many smells during the first three maxed-out morning sickness months (and still to this day, things like onion breath makes me want to hurl), it’s strange the new aromas which are -in my few weeks- starting to register as pleasant. This is especially perplexing as most of the scents are those typically classified as the unhealthy, chemical variety. Gasoline, for example. I feel like a kid again; who likes to take a few big whiffs while pumping up at the tank. The car exhaust emanating from my boyfriend’s old 4Runner -the same exhaust I was obsessively complaining about in the early stages of pregnancy- smells absolutely yummy. And while driving on newly tarred roads I can’t help but stick my head out the window to inhale it deeply. I have no idea what this is about, but similar to strange food cravings, I’ll assume this is actually my unborn son’s desires that I am inadvertently fulfilling. In the meantime, trips to Home Depot and walks down the cleaning fluid, paints, and treated wood isles are, for now, something I not only don’t mind, but absolutely enjoy.

Cuddles from the Inside

As time grow near, the sensations grow more pronounced, and the connection grows rich and deep. It’s a strange, never before felt feeling. Typically we cuddle others, to enrich that sensation inside us, share it with others, but it’s a new feeling, when you’re being cuddled from the inside. Each time he rolls around, or when his fingers and toes tickle your core, it’s like a small jolt; a hormonal cocktail high. Pregnant mommies to be don’t need to utilize other means to get high ’cause they’re getting high on life with their new baby, excited and ready to explore. Actually, despite some experience taking alternative measures, it’s the most intense high I’ve ever felt. And being cuddled from the inside, while creating that sensation of nurturing and protection for another, is unexplainable. They say the hormones pretty much cut off for the mom very shortly after birth, so I suppose maintaining that connection is the thing that keeps those feelings flowing, between a mother and a child, throughout their lives, and beyond.